Friday, March 18, 2011

Be Stronger.

It's FRIDAY!! No. This is not about Rebecca Black. Another long day today. Interview for executive board position. Interview in Katipunan.

I thought I would never say this but I'm maturing. BIG TIME. This year, I got to stop and think, who am I? That 3 word question is so hard to answer. This days I'm just really trying to figure things out. Or get more confused and frustrated than ever. I'm the type of person who's always thinking a lot. But this time, my thinking has depth. It's on a search for answer. I remember, I'm in the car with my dad. He was asking this question about how will he die. That what's the purpose of life here on earth and why do we have to die? It was something like that. Instead of trying to give an answer or even having that question sink in my mind, I laughed. Because I realized, I'm just in the stage where I am just trying to figure who I am. Because I don't. Another moment of realization was last night when I read the write up in my yearbook. I saw how young and shallow I was. I looked back and asked myself, that's all? I was expecting more from it. But I guess what people saw was what I like or what I was obsessing at the moment. I found it sad because the wasn't something there about my personality. It was more of what I do and not exactly who I am. Also, some of it are not relevant anymore. Like I no longer want to be remembered that way. 2 years have passed by. Change happened. I grew up. I grew up. It makes me want to go to Neverland and be with Peter Pan. But this is a good thing. A great thing actually. It was just recently that I told myself that "This year is not about achievements but self-fulfillment." Feeding my mind. My soul. My Heart. I need to warm up and give love. I've been receiving love from friends and it's time for me to give it back.

Well, I'm currently a confused person. As you can see from above, so is it.

posted by: mars @ 6:54 AM

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